So, I didn't start this to whine about my weight, or the prospects of being forced out of the military before retirement. I started it as a place where I can put down my thoughts on the direction that my life is heading. I've always been the type of person who internalizes everything. I am constantly thinking and mulling over situations, until I find the answers that I am happy with. Perhaps writing down those musings will help me avoid making the same mistakes that I have in the past. Only time will tell.
Its Saturday morning, one of the first in a very long time where I haven't been up and doing something to keep my mind off of everything. I forgot what the solitude of being alone is like. Part of me missed it, part of me didn't. Its like anything in life, we are creatures conflicted over what we want. When we get what we want, we want something else. Maybe it wasn't always like this, but as they say it is what it is. I do have stuff to do this weekend. At noon I have friends coming over and we will be playing the roleplaying game, Exalted. I am currently browning meat for the chili that I will be putting in the crock pot soon.
Tomorrow, Sunday... no real plans yet. I have some ideas, but we'll see. There are things that I want to do, things that... well, let me preface this first with I am not saying that I regret the sacrifices I made for some people. I feel that in a relationship, there are sacrifices made on all sides. Now, though, being alone, on my own, I am faced with the daunting prospect of keeping myself from falling back into some of my old habits, like isolationism. I used to love to write, I still do, but I took that time and I gave it to other people. Now that I have it back, the creative side in me, wants to break loose.
I have been reading up on self-epublishing. Very interesting market. Back in the day, it used to be that you could spend $500-1500 to get a publisher to knock out a couple hundred copies of your book. You, of course, had to do all the marketing and selling. It never really worked. Only in a few rare, extreme cases did anyone really benefit from it. With epublishing its opened new doors. Sony E-readers, Nooks and Kindles, cellphones and iPads are opening up a new way for people to experience literature.
I've always wanted to be published, I just don't know if I really feel like dealing with the rejection that comes with it. Most authors are rejected by the majority of publishers, before one of them picks them up. Stephen King had thrown Carrie in the trash because it had been rejected so many times. Luckily, his wife was smart enough to pull it out for him. Self-publishing however could be the middle ground that I am looking for. I would easily be able to get people to edit, critique and assist me with revisions. Once it is done, the file is submitted to Amazon, who transfers it into their Kindle format and then its placed in the marketplace for sale. The author dictates how much to charge for it. Their fee for doing this, around .15 cents on the dollar. So you don't pay anything up front, like it used to be. They simply take a small portion of the sales when someone purchases the book.
So, that is where I am this morning. One of the many things that I am considering.
No comments:
Post a Comment